Let's Make A Deal

This really isn't from me, but could be written to me...

You forgive me for liking you too much,
And I'll forgive you for not liking me enough.

You forgive me for missing you so,
And I'll forgive you for being so cold.

You forgive me for the loud racing of my heart,
And I'll forgive you for not hearing it.

You forgive me for playing your games,
And I'll forgive you for toying with my emotions.

You forgive me for finding you so attractive,
And I'll forgive you for not noticing.

You forgive me for raising you up so high,
And I'll forgive you for bringing me down so low.

You forgive me for wanting to be with you,
And I'll forgive you for avoiding me.

You forgive me for being so pathetic,
And I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it.

You forgive me for not being able to let go,
And I'll forgive you for never having latched on.

You forgive me for having hopes and dreams,
And I'll forgive you for crushing them.

Forgiveness brings inner peace.
Do we have a deal?

by Diane Blue


How do we act when something falls apart, but one party doesn't know for sure what the hell went wrong? Perhaps I did hold back too much. Perhaps the self preservation instinct is too strong. Perhaps having to glue my heart back together time after time has gotten me to the point that it is easier to be distant, rather than jump headlong into the crevasse that could be love.

I suppose closer to the truth, I'm just a hard hearted bastard that is incapable of feeling love and have shut down any emotions that come close to that feeling no matter the consequences.

Yeah, that sounds about right.